The thing about trying new things is the fact that you get scared before you even embark on it. Especially when your someone thats very competitive. Especially when your someone that is afraid of failure. Especially when people are waiting for you to fall.

But then I realise that if you never try, you never know.

You know how sometimes you can live out your whole live thinking of the what ifs? You know how sometimes you can live the whole of your life realising that you know nothing apart from the serious things? You know how sometimes you can live the whole of your life realising that you’ve never had fun?

Its because you never tried. Its because you’re afraid of falling.

But if you’ve never flown before, how do you know you would fall?

I’m a person whose afraid, afraid of falling before I tried to fly. Afraid of too many things, nonexistant to others, but a personal barrier to me.

But perhaps today, I’ve learnt that I need to try, to do things I tell myself I can’t do. Because how would I know I can’t if I haven’t tried.

And you know how sometimes you think everyone’s waiting for you to fall?

What if you think it this way?

People are waiting for you to fall, just so they can be there to catch you.

Those are the people who care. As for the rest, if you don’t care about me why should I care about you right?

“Don’t fear failure so much that you refuse to try new things. The saddest summary of a life contains three descriptions: could have, might have, and should have.” – Anonymous

I could start writing about something, get bored halfway, save it as a draft and decades later, it still remains as my draft.

Its sooooo hard to upkeep a blog and school, mainly because of the watching of tee veeeee at night.

I mean theres CSI, Bones, Lost Templar, Harper’s Island, American Idol, la di da la di da. Even local dramas like Red Thread is proving to hold my interest. As they say, “Too many shows to cover, too little time.”

Anyway, just to update for updatings sake.

Hmmm…

I woke up with an immense HEADACHE and had to beg my friend to buy panadol for me.

I realised that you have to eat panadol on a filled stomach for it to be effective and 2 pills is always better than 1 now that I’m 18 years old.

Through some random experiments, I found out that washing your hand with just water actually increases the bacterial count. So you should definitely use soap.

I realised that the modern guys pick up methods are very ancient and desperately need to be updated.

My friend told me that I tend to ignore people that are strangers to me. Which I concluded was true.

Everyone should try the FISH BURGER from MOS because its simply delicious and its one of the only few burgers that I will ever eat from there. The fact that they gave alot of onions in their mayo, does greatly influence my praises for that burger.

Harper’s island is interesting and I’m still in the midst of guessing who the murderer is. I reallyyyy want to know who it is and I keep thinking its the guy about to get married.

I’ve decided to read more Agatha Christie’s books in the hopes that I would become the next greatest dectective novelist.

And I can’t think of any other random facts about me.

So I think its about time to end here. HAHA.

Back to the old layout again which I hope doesn’t decide to screw up one day. But I’m seriously getting bored of this old layout, its like looking at a withering flower. Rather, a dead flower. Please can the perfect layout just come now pleaseeeeee.

Sembawang Shopping Centre was recently (ohkay, not that recently) renovated!! My parents and I used to go to the old one because they had FREE PARKING!

As with past practices, it was now having a SPECIAL PROMOTION!

Free parking from 12pm to 2pm from Mondays to Fridays!

Which is quite a good deal because you can shop there for 2 hours! And contrary to what I used to believe, there is very few people inside Sembawang Shopping Centre!! So you don’t have to squeeze like when you go to Orchard Road or Bugis Street.

I remember in the past when my daddy would drive by and there would be hoards of people’s car waiting to park their cars and we thought they all wanted to buy the $1.50 chicken from Giant! HAHAHA.

But its really quite a great place, I mean theres a few fashion shops there, Jean Yip which have some fantastic promotions because of the slow traffic, some fancy smansy bakery that sells buns at really ridiculous prices, MOF (which I heard serves brilliant food), DAISO (where you can get everything at 2 bucks!!) and GIANT!

Theres free shuttle bus services there from Yishun Mrt and various other Mrts as well so its quite ok for people who don’t drive! But I have to admit the shuttle buses are quite packed most of the time.

Its really quite empty and cold during weekdays though, so you can try popping in between 12pm and 2pm if your insanely free and pulling your hair out thinking where you can visit on this uberly small island.

We went to the Kopitiam there to eat. So here is what we ate and as usual my smashing comments. (:

Hokkien Mee

Rating: 1/5
Price: About $3.50 (can’t remember)

Not worth trying it out simply because its not well fried. Even though you would imagine they placed lots of chicken stock, the hokkien mee is extremely bland to the point of tasteless. They didn’t give alot of ingredients either, the usual prawn and sotong. The noodle was rather hard and it wasn’t like sticky wet hokkien mee, it was wet wet, like plain water instead of chicken broth that kind of wet. So I didn’t like it at all.

What was really odd was that they man fried the hokkien mee on the flat hot plate thing usually used to fry carrot cake. Which to me is really weird because I think hokkien mee fried in a WOK would be much more appropriate. But I don’t really know how to cook, I only know how to EAT! So i’ll leave it at that.

I would say eat this only if your extremely desperate for a hokkien mee fix, the way a smoker hankers after smoking that kind of desperate.

Lotus Leaf Rice

Lotus Leaf Rice

Rating: 0/5
Price: About $2.50

As far as worse lotus leaf rice goes, this takes the award. Very little meat inside the rice and the rice wasn’t sticky and didn’t have the fragrance of the lotus leaf. The rice was on the hard side. So its like eating a very hard chocolate ball only instead of receiving a gooey pile of chocolate melting on your mouth when you hit the centre, you reach a small serving of salty meat. Brilliant.

Saba Fish

Rating: 3.5/5
Price: $4

The saba fish was bought from the store selling fish soup and not from the Korean one because of PRICE. Price-wise, the saba fish from the fish soup store is quite the value for money. Comes with rice and a small serving of salad (if you can call it that).

I would recommend eating it from the fish stall to save yourself abit of money. Even though this saba fish doesn’t come in a hotplate and sizzling but in terms of taste, I have to say I think its on par of that of the Korean store. It comes with a sweet sauce dribbled rather generously over it and the fish is more meaty than bony (which is always a good thing).

If your in the mood for saba fish but you feel tight with money and can’t bear to spend $5.50 on the saba frish from the korean store, you can give this one a try. You might be pleasantly surprised after all. (:

XO seafood fried rice

Rating: 3.75/5
Price: $3.50

Another dish that I recommend you try. Very generous in terms of portion and very tasty as well. Comes with squid and prawn which is not bad. Frying fried rice with XO sauce is always the right way to go. They weren’t overtly generous with the XO sauce to the extent that you might choke on the overwhelming taste. It was just the right proportion of sauce to rice. I actually rather enjoyed it.

As with all fried rice, I think you must always eat green chilli with it. Without the green chilli, the rice might taste bland at times and the taste might be a little irritating and non stimulating to the tastebuds. But not a bad dish.

Toast Set

Toast with Kaya

Rating: 2.5/5
Price: $2

The reason why I gave this a rather ok rating is purely because you can’t go wrong with half boiled eggs and coffee. The coffee was thick and rather aromatic and with just enough milk such that it didn’t taste extremely sweet but just nice. The half boiled eggs were rather well cooked, but I would have prefered them to be more done. It was rather raw at the point of consumption. More like quarter boiled eggs.

The toast as you can see was quite ok. I have to commend the persons toasting skils because the bread was aptly crisp enough to allow you to have that nice crunchy biting sound when you bite into it. However, the person was extremely stingy on the kaya and butter which made the toast quite bland. It was like eating crunchy bread, which really defeats the point of it being Kaya toast when you can only taste the toast.

Century Egg Porridge

Rating: 2/5
Price: $3

The porridge was good because they give doughsticks (you tiao) which I really love in a porridge. However, the porridge was extremely plain and they didn’t give alot of century eggs. It wasn’t also very thick, but rather watery and I had to use alot of soya sauce so that I could actually taste something. For $3, the portion of porridge was ok but because it tasted so plain, i’d rather buy $3 worth of bottled water and drink it. Since it would taste the same anyway.

After much eating of century egg porridge, I have to conclude that dicing the century egg into the porridge is definitely much better than slices of century egg. Reason being century egg is extremely salty so eating it in slices actually makes your tongue feel rather uncomfortable! So yea, now I prefer them diced up!

Durian Ice Kachang

Price: $2

Always end a meal with dessert!! Especially because the weather is killer hot nowadays! I swear I just stand in my house for a minute with the fans off and I perspire buckets of sweat. If you could sell sweat, I think I would be a millionaire by now. Seriously, I don’t mind more of those Sumatra Squalls things where the wind is so strong that tree branches break. Perspiring in your own house is practically a sin.

So anyway, a nice cooling bowl of ice kachang never hurts.

Not really going to comment on the ice kachang and give it a rating, simply because all ice kachangs taste the same. I only have to say that the durian puree was thick and it was as generous as other stores. The only store I’ve seen given an extremely generous amount of durian on top was that of Ice monster, but those cost $5.50 a bowl.

So for the price you pay here, the durian is quite ok and the ice kachang tastes quite ok and the ingredients are as per all other stores. (Red bean, atapchi, chin chow)

And that ends the trip to Sembawang Shopping Centre! You should totally visit if your free!

Have to start off by saying that I HATE THIS LAYOUT! ANYONE ELSE HAVE BETTER LAYOUTS? This is just sooooooo boringggggggglyyyyyy plainnnn.

I hate plain, I love colours and flowers and anything!! So anywayyyy..

Sweaty palms, butterflies in the stomach, constant checking of the clock to ensure you don’t leave the house late, hoping and praying all goes well, that you wouldn’t be the last to be picked. Typical symptoms of the first day of school. Not just you but everyone else.

BUT NOT ME TODAY!!

HAHA! Cause its the first day in my 2nd year in poly! So I go back to the same class with the same friends!

Seeing those first years heading off to school brought back some form of nostalgia, because afterall I was there once and I would go through it again just so time could go back.

2nd year pretty much sucks, the modules are harder, the teachers look sterner. No wonder they say the hardest year in polytechnic is the 2nd year and not the 1st. I expected lessons to be cancelled, 1st week and all.

But all the teachers came promptly and started rattling off about their modules.

One typical singlish word, SIAN!!

Won’t even talk about how ‘lucky’ I was when it came to drawing lots for my grouping. Lets just say I’m really thanking the heavens and the almighty God above for allowing me to secretly change groups with other people.

My initial group was… interestingly lazy to say the least.

Alright, conclusion is: I hate school, especially 2nd year. Don’t remind me lessons start at 8am tomorrow (which is wayyyy early for someone like me thank you very much)

Ah well, off to watch the woman with half a body on okto!! Seems veryyyy cool and veryyyyyy nice.

Another person thats veryyyyy cool and veryyyyyy nice is nick vujicic. Shall end off with a video with you if you haven’t heard of him yet. An awesomely strong soul, everyone can find strength in him for sure.

You find strength by seeing how others found their strength.

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v4uG2kSdd-4[/youtube]

oh why oh why do people not see its horrible to impose your high and mighty expectations on others. just take the expectations away.

Back from the chalet and I’m going to haughtily assume everyone misses my posts. Really freaking tired, came back with a leg filled with a billion mosquito bites and eyes that are drooping to the extent they can hit the floor.

Try sleeping for at least 9 hours a day everyday and suddenly stay up for nearly 48 hours. That killed me. Quite literally and I tried to be brave and told my mummy, “Give me 1 hour of sleep and I’ll wake up to do my friends present.” I knocked out for 3 and nearly bashed any creature that dared wake me up.

But I did anyway, only to have a serious headache.

Just to sum my chalet up asap so I can get my much awaited sleep:

I’m stuck with a sorethroat from all the screaming when playing Heart Attack and with a permanent flu from sitting on a chair in the Buddha like position trying to catch some sleep in the cold cold chalet.

Tried to watch a sunrise in the first time in my life but we looked left when the sun rose from the right and all we saw was the sun taunting us as we dragged ourselves back to the chalet for some shut eye.

Finally beginning to feel some semblance of a class spirit and got to see beyond the boundaries of cliques.

And BK’s milo never tasted so good after running out of 6 bottles of water and a few cartons of soft drinks.

I’ll write more if I ever lay my evil hands on the class chalets photos. But it was a good chalet and I truly enjoyed every moment.

This commercial is constantly repeated on Channel 5 after the news and during the prime times. I found it extremely touching and decided to share.

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s2XLZsiCBsA[/youtube]
Credits to the directior Yasmin Ahmad, the Ministry of Community Development, Youth and Sports “MCYS”.”

Whoever wrote this eulogy was extremely good. For people who may not be able to view the video for some weird reason, here is it in words…

“I’m not going to sing praises about for my late husband, not today. Neither am I going to say how good he was, enough of people have done that here. Instead, I want to talk about some things that make people feel… abit uncomfortable.

First off, I want to talk about what happened in bed.

Ever had difficulty in starting your car engine in the morning?

[insert snoring sounds here]

Well thats exactly what David’s snoring sounded like. But wait, snoring wasn’t everything.

There was also this rear end wind action going on as well. Some nights, he would be so forceful it would wake him up.

“What was that?” he would ask.

“Oh.. it’s the dog. Go back to sleep dear,” I would say.

Oh you might find this all very funny but towards the end of his life, when his illness was at its worst, these sounds indicated to me that my David was still alive

And what I wouldn’t give just to hear these sounds again before I sleep.

In the end, its these small things that we remember. Little imperfections that make them perfect for you. So to my beautiful children, I hope one day you find yourself life partners who are as beautifully imperfect as your father was to me.”

I believe someone truly said this at another’s funeral and my mummy told me it would be something she would want me to say about her at hers.

It may seem distant, death and all of its foreboding issues but death is never far away and is always swift and sudden. Death needs to be faced with courage and not fear and moments before death must be cherished, the good and the bad. For it is these moments that make up our life. And it is in these moments that we are forever remembered.

The reason why this video touched me is because so often we think that people always remember the good habits, the good acts, the good characters of a person.

But what people forget is that sometimes when a person is gone, you may miss their bad habits as well.

Habits of them shaking their leg, snoring, farting, laziness, greediness alot of stuff that may make you go ewww gross but when gone you would give anything to hear them again.

It makes people appreciate others as a whole, for their perfections, for their imperfections. For everything makes up a person, not just the good, but the bad as well. (: