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Its not hard to find a worthy cause which you support from the bottom of your heart, save the earth, save the dolphins, save the animals. All causes are worth supporting and because of this, i implore you to take a little time and support feisty princess charmaine.

She’s a 4 year old kid with neuroblastoma and you can support her by visiting her blog.

I’ve never heard of her today, never knew what kids who had cancer have to suffer through, never knew the emotional battle that the parents had to go through.

But I also never knew a child at such a young age could be that strong, be that optimistic and be that brave to fight the challenges that lay ahead.

It kind of makes me ashamed when I complain about life. Because who am I to throw away a beautiful life given to me when people, kids, are battling cancer, battling the fate that they have.

I’m in no position to comment on how painful it must be for her mummy to go through everything, neither can I say how much pain the little girl might be in right now.

But what I can do, is to ask people to support their blog.

Even if you don’t make a donation, click on their nuffnang ads. Even if you feel like you are helpless to her situation, include her in your daily prayers. Send a little prayer up to heaven for her. And I believe she will pull through by pure faith.

People might often say there are a billion people out there you need to support, why this girl, why her?

Simply because,

There may be a billion peope out there but we don’t have the means to support them. And we should support those whom we have the means to support. And Charmaine, is someone anyone can support. Through prayer, through clicking of the advertisements.

And remember that,

To everyone in the world, Charmaine might be one person, but to the people who care about her, she means the world to them.

And because of that, simply because of that, we should help them keep their world from breaking.

These are the ‘in thing’ in Singapore these days. I visited two to date.

The first was an F&B Job Fair, held in IMM. Being the first job fair that I’ve visited, I was like a kid being let loose in a candy store. I was so excited and full of hopes, especially when I was told that the employers will hire on the spot. The truth of the matter is, they only hire the junior workers, eg, cleaners, waiters, waitress on the spot.

There were lots of jobs available and only one junior administrative post. Most of the employers although outwardly mention that for the more senior positions, related experience is not required, but inwardly it does. That was my realization after trying various booths.

There was this local company (rather famous restaurant which I always had a very good impression of) gave me the worst impression on their hiring tactics. One woman was extremely ‘bitchy’. I was curious as to what duties a ‘Guest Relations Officer’ does in their establishment and questioned her about it. After her explanation, I told her is it not the same as a maitre d’? She just looked at me with ‘hate’ written in her eyes. I think she felt threatened by me somehow and lied to me about the pay they were offering to their staff. When her colleague told her they could consider me for administration work, she absolutely refused, stating there was no such vacancy. Believe it or not, an argument ensued with me present!!! I told them it’s fine and just left that booth, feeling really despondent and upset. How unprofessional!!!

When I approached another establishment, a Japanese sounding one and applied for the same post, (they have another fancy sounding name for it) the hiring staff was really pleasant and asked me what the other establishments were offering me. When I revealed the amount, the lady was absolutely dumb-founded and told me it was just quite impossible that they would be offering such a low salary. It was here that I discovered how the other ‘bitchy’ lady lied to me about the salary.

I think I was over dressed (shirt blouse, skirt and heels), I mean I carried this ‘huge’ bag with my portfolio inside and looked ‘too professional’. Everytime, I approached a booth to ask if there was a vacancy, the attendees would somehow not hear the part which I asked if there was a job opening and proceed to ask which company I represented and who was I looking for??

People are just too taken aback when I revealed that I was looking for a job. Once again, I have to blame my appearance. Just what is wrong with me???

The good thing was, Channel News Asia interviewed me and I appeared on the 10 pm news that day. It seems they had trouble finding ‘English’ speaking candidates at the fair. Finally, I’m being appreciated for my English speaking skills. Watching the news that day surprised me, cause I had no idea I spoke such good English. That was such a boost to my moral, which I desperately needed.

So i managed to catch Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince on the actual day of its release here in Singapore which is 16th July!

Which happens to be my daddy’s birthday!

The movie is relatively darker compared to the previous few because the end of the whole saga is drawing near.

Did it suck? Only certain areas but some areas were pretty cool.

I loved the ending when Dumbledore and Harry went into the caves actually, cause I think the animation at that instant was very cool, especially when Dumbledore was waving his wand around and creating fire.

That part kind of touched me because though he was really weak, in order to protect Harry, he managed to find his strength and cast a spell.

And not to mention the effects were fantastic.

Did not like the lovey dovey parts between lavender and ron though it provided the light moments in the movie.

But I think they were too overtly focused on the romance when they should have given time for other aspects of the show.

Not enough of snape, not enough of so many people, like Lupin, Tonks etc.

Obviously, the show isn’t the whole representation of the book, alot of additional scenes that were completely absent in the book but I guess it was to create the kind of atmosphere that dark times were coming and that people make sacrifices along the way.

Like the weasleys having their house burned down, or the people on the bridge dying. It didn’t happen in the book, but it was just kind of a link of sorts.

For a almost 2 hr 40 mins movie i would say that the show was draggy in some areas but too fast paced at others. But Harry potter shows have always been like this. The fast paced actions are always at the end when things start moving too fast.

I didn’t cry when Dumbledore died but I did have the tears welling up in my eyes. Have to say that Sirius’s death was pretty much the same. Although this time they did lengthen the death of dumbledore more.

Sirius’s death was too quick, followed by too much action. Dumbledore’s death wasn’t exactly like the book but by prolonging the period of them mourning for his death, I think it kind of made it better.

I did hope they would show his funeral though. And I definitely wished they showed the final death of dumbledore where it was supposed to happen.

Because he definitely did not fall down the tower.

And I would wish they cut down on the relationships. The show was so completely focused on all the relationships in the show.

Harry and Ginny, Ginny and Dean Thomas, Lavender and Ron, Hermoine and Ron, Hermoine and that weird fella whose obsessed with her, Harry and that weird fella whose obsessed with him.

Harry potter shouldn’t be so much about the love, as it is the friendship, the bond between harry and dumbledore.

But I did like the recap of Tom Riddle. I expected much more recollection of Tom Riddle memories though. And I think the boy looks too different from the boy that acted in Chamber of Secrets as Tom Riddle.

But I could be overtly picky.

Would I say that the show was a waste of time? Definitely not!

I enjoyed some parts and hated others. It didn’t have all the details of the book that I wanted it to and I found certain scenes seriously useless. But I would say to watch it if you want to. It could be an ordinary movie I guess.

If your not a picky movie watcher, and you overlook all the minute details, then I would say the movie is pretty passe.

So yea, catch harry potter and the half blood prince today! You know you would even if it sucked because of the temptation in your hearts! (:

Thats how great J.K Rowling is. (:

“I love you, and because I love you, I would sooner have you hate me for telling you the truth than adore me for telling you lies.” Pietro Aretino

It may always hurt the other person and yourself to tell the truth. But by hiding behind your lies, which you fool yourself into thinking will protect the other person, you actually hurt them more.

It isn’t the words that were spoken that kills me, its the long silences filled with wods that should be uttered but held back because of considerations.

Friends and family alike should share everything with each other if they claim to be true friends and true family.

But by telling me you can’t bear to tell me the truth, you’re telling me I’m not deserving enough to know the truth.

Its so much harder for me to read about your lies than for me to hear the truth from your own mouth.

I know I’m not a great friend but hiding behind lies and false facades, actually seriously makes everything much worse.

If you treated me as a friend you would tell me the truth and if I had the courage to tell you all of my heartfelt thoughts, I wouldn’t be typing them here.

Why do we always think lying is the best solution to protecting ourselves and someone else?

Don’t they see that the person being lied to feels so much more horrible.

Because it hurts to see someone they care for, lie for them.

And this is the real truth, as it should be.

If people who mind, don’t matter and people who matter don’t mind.

Then I have some people to be thankful for.

There aren’t alot of friends that I can say I can spill my guts to and they would understand, and more importantly they wouldn’t judge.

They wouldn’t say you’re a complete bitch for doing this, they would say I understand where you’re coming from. And these words come from their heart.

So to the people who matter and don’t mind, I can only think of one friend.

She’s been my friend since Primary school, the years of memories, the quarrels and the fights, we know deep in our hearts.

I can’t express my gratitude to her in words, so I wouldn’t even bother trying to.

There were times we fought, times we were frustrated but she kept my secrets close to her heart and didn’t let them out.

For that I am thankful.

There were times when I needed to vent and all she had to do was sit there and listen and I felt like finally, there was a teenager out there that actually understood where I was coming from.

For that, I am ever more thankful.

I wish she could know how thankful I am, but I guess she does. Because we are friends who get it without words. Thank you. For everything.

And for the people who really matter the most to me, and never ever mind..

My daddy.

My mummy.

My brother.

My family members who’ve seen me through it all. I’ve been wilful, been confused, been upset, been happy, been angry, been all the tumultuous emotions that a person could feel. And throughout it all, my family have stood by me.

I can’t always express in words what I want from them, making them feel very frustrated. And I know sometimes they don’t get exactly what I’m thinking. Because most of the time, I don’t even know what I’m thinking about.

But they’ve endured through it all. They’ve tried to their bestest ability to be considering towards me, even when I believe I’m at my worst.

They are the true people who don’t mind. Don’t mind that I lie sometimes, don’t mind that I’m not the great person some people make me out to be.

I could be the worst person in the whole wide world, but they would accept me for who I am.

And not for one second am I not thankful for that. Even in my cursing and swearing moments at them.

For everything, a simple thank you doesn’t suffice. But thats all that I can give.

So thank you to my family, for accepting me at my worst, for trusting me and for giving me all they can (even when I don’t see it sometimes).

I’m going through some bad times, where what I can only describe as ‘evil’ thoughts passing through my mind.

And in these times, I feel so frustrated and really very very sad and emotional. But somehow, after some thinking and some talking, I realised that there are still things to be thankful for.

The dark period may not pass from my life soon, but as long as I have people like my family to support me. Then I believe that I can live past it. Past the rebellion. Past the sadness.

Though no one understands truly how I feel, I’m glad my family chooses to stick by me. And not abandon me in the Sahara Desert so to speak.

Hopefully, the dark period in my life would pass. Soon.

Ending off with a song that describes a little of what I’m going through.

Life Aint Always Beautiful – Gary Allan

Sometimes I feel like I’m the greatest disappointment, and I don’t understand why no one sees me as that. But I am thankful they stick by me anyway.